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14yrs later....

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 Today, after many years, I went back to my school and met my teachers. Fourteen years ago, the image I had of them was of people who were strong, authoritative, energetic, and full of life. Today, I saw many of those same people at a very different stage of their lives. Some are nearing retirement. Some are dealing with health issues. And each of them has their own set of things happening in life. As I spoke to them, I realised how much a person’s energy, strength, health, and circumstances can change with time. Back then, I was a child. Today, I am an adult. I have my own strength. My own energy. My own capacity. And perhaps that is why, sometimes, we start believing: “I can do everything. I don’t need anyone.” But seeing my teachers today reminded me that this strength is not permanent. Today, I have my health and my energy. So the things I want to do shouldn’t always be pushed to “later.” If I want to travel, I should travel. If I want to dance, I should dance. If I want to sin...
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I am tired of surviving.

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 I am tired of surviving. Living safely. I want to live freely. Make waves. Take up space. Laugh aloud. Crack silly jokes. Bother people. Make a fool out of myself and still not shrink. Feel helplessness. Get embarrassed. Love freely. Feel sad. Cry hard on someone's shoulder. Express fully. Dance while everyone is watching. Let people dislike me. Be bold. Thrive. Not just survive.
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Ma

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 A corner of my heart that still aches. And no one knows. I have never let anyone see. They think they know. I wonder if they really do. I am still unknown. 9 yrs... And still learning to find the words to describe it To describe you... To describe us... For the pain you endured and I couldn't see.  For  the things you did for me and I couldn't see. For the mean words I said and things I did to you for me being so immature. For the things I am still upset about you... For what I still don't agree with you... What do I say now... I am sorry. Thank you. You did your best. Does it matter now? Please forgive me for the hurt I caused. Thank you for everything you did for me which contributes to who I am today. May you find your peace. You will.... Bless me to find mine. I want you to live in my heart, Not as an ache but as a strength. I want to choose my own destiny. Bless me to move on..... Bless me to create my own path. Bless me Ma. Be my strength. Love, Pratiksha
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What if it turned out better than you thought.

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 Is thinking about the worst case sinarios always good. Well it prepares you to some extent but what if it paralyses you. And that's what I used to do. Thinking about what could go wrong .I was thinking I am just preparing myself for the worst but it made me paralysed in many cases. And as a result,I didn't try new things. Life became boring. Lost the spark. Why ? because beauty lies in the unknown. Excitement lies in surprise. And knowing things in advance spoils the surprise. The only thing you need to know is you can figure it out. Even though you don't know how,now. But you will figure out somehow. That's the safety you have. And that's enough. Let the unknown surprise you. Let it fill your life with excitement. Let your spark be back. Let yourself feel alive again. Know that you will get the support when you need it. Trust that you can create your own support system. Allow yourself to flow. Let life surprise you. You don't know....What if it turned out bett...
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May you stop seeing yourself through the eyes that never saw you.

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 Sometimes, the people we desperately want to to understand us… simply can’t. And in that moment of loneliness, you begin to question yourself. Maybe they are right. Maybe I am overthinking. Maybe I am wrong. Without realising you are losing yourself in the process. Just because someone can't see you doesn't mean you are not there.  Doesn't mean you don't feel what you feel. Doesnt mean you don't have the needs that you have. Suppressing your needs and emotions because someone can't see it, doesn't make them vanish. What you  feel is valid.Even though others can't see it. But at least you don't be the person who dismiss, avoid or supress your own selves. Suppressing,neglecting, avoiding your needs and emotions never give a fruitful results.It may create a false peace in the moment but create a big explosion later. May you stop seeing yourself through the eyes that never saw you. May you see yourself even though no one else does. Love, Pratiksha
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I Will Still Hold You

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Show me who you are, and I will still hold you. You don't need to worry and pretend,  because I will still hold you. It's unfortunate that you had to wear masks remove it and I will still hold you. With your fears, insecurities, even with your survival mechanisms, I will still hold you. You can relax in my hold always, I will keep holding you. And that me is you. I will hold me always. Love, Pratiksha #selflove #courage #innerclarity #selfconnection
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The anklet I didn't keep but the wisdom I did

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A recent incident that taught me a deep lesson… I had been wanting to buy anklets for a while. So I asked my brother if he could gift them to me as a my Rakhi & Birthday present .  Later, I shared this with my grandmother, and she lovingly said she would buy the anklets for me on my brother’s behalf. I felt excited. We went to a jeweller, someone from whom our relatives had purchased earlier. It was a bit late in the evening. I wanted a 92.5% silver anklet. I tried on 2–3 designs, but before I could explore further, my brother called asking me to return soon.  I was in a rush, and in that moment of pressure, I quickly picked a pair. As I was almost at the billing counter, I asked the jeweller about the silver quality.He said it's 70%. I was surprised. This wasn’t what I wanted. Yet, I convinced myself to go ahead with it.  Thoughts like: They’ve kept the shop open for me late... They’ve already shown me several pieces... It would be awkward to walk away now… ...p...
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